I had blood drawn today. To confirm that I am not pregnant. It's office protocol.
Another blood test. As I was leaving the office it occurred to me that I no longer have a phobia of needles in the least bit.
When I had my first blood draw I was 17 or 18 and terrified. I only had my blood drawn a few times in my 20's and was almost as terrified. Now that I am in my 30's I feel like a human pin cushion. It really doesn't even bother me anymore either. It is like flying I guess. I was terrified about that in the beginning too. I didn't fly at all when I was young and only took my second flight while in college. Now I have a frequent flier account. I have no fear while flying much like I have no fear of the blood draw.
I'm not modest in the least anymore at the doctors office either. I've had more transvaginal ultrasounds than I can count. Not to mention my HSG and sonohystogram. I'm viewing this all as practice and preparation for a real-life pregnancy. I will be bulletproof soon.
If you couldn't tell, I'm looking for my silver-lining because I am a little down right now. I'm not sure what it is but I'm consumed with all-things-pregnant these days. youtube, babycenter, pinterest, blogger, maternity clothes. I am obsessed.
I assume I will get a call from the doctor tomorrow with the results and next steps. I half expect him to want to see me in his office for an appointment to talk about what the heck happened during my first clomid cycle. I sort of already know what happened - the provera messed me up.
I'm looking forward to what tomorrow will bring.
Rainbow: My hormones are finally under control again. The clomid has left my system, just in time for an awful cold to settle in.
Rainshower: It is unfortunate that I have to look for these silver-linings month after month.