Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Still here & thankfully still pregnant

The I think my 'in denial' phase might finally be coming to an end.  It seems as though I haven't believed that I am pregnant since the beginning.  Having ZERO symptoms does NOT help dispel the denial either.  

Swollen breasts - no. 
Breast tenderness - no. 
Nausea - no.  
Fatigue - no.  
Mood swings - nothing uncharacteristic ;)
Food aversions - no.  
Weight gain at 13 weeks - none.  I'm still comfortably fitting into all of my normal clothes.  No concealing required.

See what I mean?  It's easy to be in denial when you feel 100% normal 95% of the time.

The only symptoms I have are:  
Increased urination - yes.  
Tiredness at the end of the day - occasionally.  
Breathlessness - when climbing stairs.  

All of these things can be explained away by saying "I drank a lot of water today when I was busy at work on a hectic day that physically drained me.  No wonder I was out of breath, I climbed a ton of stairs today and that alone can be physically draining."

Today I am 13 weeks, 1 day.  Here is an ultrasound from 12 weeks.  

This is from the Nuchal Translucency ultrasound.  We also had a blood test to look for serious chromosomal abnormalities.  That test came back 'normal' so that is reassuring.  It's amazing how much babies develop between 10 weeks and 12 weeks though.  It was fun seeing baby wiggle around so much at 12 weeks.

I've had two IVIG infusions since becoming pregnant.  Fortunately, I received news that I do NOT need a third infusion at this time but my doctor will continue to monitor my natural killer levels monthly and prescribe an infusion if my immune system overreacts to the pregnancy again.  Fingers crossed that it doesn't so I can pretend like I am a normal pregnant lady (with virtually NO symptoms.)

More good news, today is the last day of blood thinning injections.  This was only prescribed for the first trimester so no more needles!  Yippee.

My next OB appointment will be at the end of next week when I will be 14 weeks, 3 days.  It will be nice to find the heartbeat with a Doppler this time.  Reassurance is always nice but I haven't felt paralyzed with fear and concern without it either.  I'm oddly calm about this pregnancy even if I was in denial at the same time.

Is this real life?  Is this my life?  It is all becoming a blur.  We just may have a shot at a take home baby here.  It's all so surreal.