I'll admit it. I spent an inordinate amount of time researching strollers & car seats for my someday baby this weekend. My secret board on Pinterest was reviewed and added to. I could have and should have accomplished other things with my time but I suppose it was nice to dream for a little while.
It was strangely satisfying, a little bit sad but also a sign of my optimism right now.
I've been here before. Heck, I even bought a crib that is sequestered to my basement as I type this. I hope to not be let down like last time. Although it is nice to feel optimistic again for a change, I do hope it can stay this way.
I'm nervous, anxious and excited to be on the cusp of beginning another IVF cycle. This is a good mental place to be in when beginning something so time consuming, emotionally draining and with a certain level of physical pain associated with it. I am in the right frame of mind to begin the grueling two month IVF schedule.
I am calm and at peace which is just so lovely.