What is even worse is the awkward conversation with the nurse when she calls with the results. They always seem surprised that I am not devastated by the news. It's almost as if I am encouraging THEM to keep trying.
I test early so I can come to terms with the outcome and start a new cycle with a clear mind. I treat it as a fresh start and am optimistic about next time. Perhaps this is rare considering the astonishment of the nurses that I speak to.
Am I really that strange? Is it really that uncommon to test early and already deal with my emotions and disappointment prior to being told by the nurse? Apparently.
Why a blood test if I already know the results? Well, most of the time it is required if you have had medication (Clomid, HCG shot, etc.).
For me though it does provide a little peace of mind. My third pregnancy and miscarriage was a complete surprise. I tested negative and then got what I thought was my period (but kept spotting for longer than usual). When my spotting turned into bleeding mid cycle I called the doctor and had a blood test that confirmed I was pregnant and miscarrying. This is exactly why 'light' periods make me paranoid now.
So our first, well timed, IUI was a bust. No May baby for us. I would have LOVED a May baby:(