Negative. Just like I thought.
I tested yesterday and got the negative results. I didn't bother to test again today. I go in for my blood test tomorrow for the confirmation. I don't intend to confirm the inevitable before the phone call from the Doctors Office tomorrow afternoon. I wonder what the nurse will say when I tell her that we are taking a month off and that I refuse to do Clomid anymore? I see a Doctor's Appointment in my near future (to talk about what our other options are).
Honestly, I am ok with the negative test. I have never had a strong 'this is it' feeling this month and was never really confident about our timing and the absence of EWCM. I am just happy that the two week wait is over and that I will be taking a break from the hormones the next cycle. I am excited to relax a little, be myself (since I have been on hormones almost constantly since January) and enjoy the summer a little bit before starting to try again.
Yes, I have moments of longing and sadness but I know my positive test is right around the corner. I just know it. 2013 will bring me a positive test and a sticky baby.
This is the point in my cycle where optimism it at it's highest and I LOVE it. I wish I could fell a little less obsessed during the TWW but I don't think that will ever really happen. I'm just that way.
Rainshower: I wish I was pregnant, of course.
Rainbow: I am still optimistic and looking forward to what this summer brings.